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Happiness Turns To Heartbreak

Happiness Turns To Heartbreak

We recently found out that we were expecting our third baby. We were all thrilled! It was fun to see so much joy in the boys’ faces as we shared the news with them. They were full of questions and so excited as we talked about the pregnancy and how they would get to be involved along the way and after baby was born. However, a few days later we started miscarrying.

Even though it was too early to tell the baby’s gender, we picked a name that we feel encompasses our baby’s significance and the life we will always remember: River Bliss Dillard.

One meaning for River is “tranquil”…and here in Arkansas, rivers are often a serene, beautiful escape in nature. We also like how the River talked about in the Bible (Rev. 22:1-5) represents God’s life-giving presence. The river of life (Holy Spirit), “flows from the throne of God,” and with the tree of life is “for the healing of the nations.” Our baby doesn’t get to live here with us on earth, but is forever with the source of the river of life, in the presence of the Lord! And we chose Bliss for a middle name because our baby is living in perfect bliss with the Lord and was such a gift that brought immense joy and happiness to us even though only with us here on earth for a short time.

Below is a short video montage in honor of River that captures us finding out we were expecting with some other special moments.

See original video with song, “I Will Carry You” by Selah on Jill’s Instagram: @jillmdillard

“Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb through the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be anything accursed, but the throne of God and of the Lamb will be in it, and his servants will worship him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. And night will be no more. They will need no light of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light, and they will reign forever and ever.” -Revelation 22:1-5

The photos above are considered the property of the Dillard Family and may only be used with their written permission. Please request permission to use the photos.


  1. Beth Zimmerman

    I am so so sorry for your Loss. There are no words to express that kind of pain. My Heart, Thoughts and Prayers go out to your Family during this Difficult time. I love the name you gave your Baby.

  2. Plm

    So sorry for your loss!! Prayers for y’all!

  3. Regina

    Oh Jill I’m so very sorry. Please know you and your family are in my prayers. May you feel God’s loving arms around you. I also named my two babies I lost in 2001 and 2002. Micah Dolan and Brianna Rose.

  4. Tonya Porter

    Derrick, Jill, Israel and Samuel, my thoughts and prayers are going up for y’all. May God comfort and keep you all during this very difficult time. God bless you all.

  5. Regina

    Jill, you were on my mind today as this is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day and I wanted to let you know I’m praying for you and well as fellow mamas here who’ve lost babies.


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